Monday, October 11, 2010

Day 11

A photo of me recently and how I feel about seeing it now ~

 - A very recent photo (a week ago).This is my little sister and I.
She is about to have her 5th baby at the end of this month. So about how I feel....I feel two worlds colide. I am pregnant with my second rainbow and she with her 4th. She had a miscarriage with her first and has gone on to have perfect deliveries- all natural- with the rest. She is really good at being pregnant and bringing my nieces and nephews into the world -like she was made to make babies. I love her tremendously and would want nothing less for her. I on the other hand feel like I am not so good at this, but am holding my breath, hoping to be proven wrong. I hope I can look back on this picture in December and have joy. Joy because I am holding that rainbow and she hers, not grieving for another baby lost. I agreed to taking this picture because I thought, either way I'm gonna want to remember this and I hope it isn't because it will be a keepsake in another memory box.

6 comments:

  1. Bumpbuddysisters! You both look fabulous! I am glad you found the courage to take a picture.

    I so regret not having taken more from Claire's pregnancy and am trying hard to take more this time. Like you, I hope that I can add them to a baby album and not a memory box.

    xo

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  2. oh hun. So sorry that our minds are no longer carefree during pregnancy. I am praying that everything goes well and I will be congratulating you in December!! much love! (btw isnt being prego the same time as your sis awesome? My sister and I were prego together as well. We had our kids within 25 days of each other!)

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  3. Just want to send you love. You both look so cute. Praying that all goes well for you;o)

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  4. I love this picture. I hope you can look back on it with fond memories while you're holding your rainbow! :)

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  5. I'm with Tiffany - so sorry your mind is no longer carefree during pregnancy. Beautiful picture of you and your sister! <3

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  6. That picture is great, you both look wonderful.

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