Tuesday, January 4, 2011


I've been at a loss...what to say?
Christmas sucked
New Years too
I haven't went to her grave since October
I feel guilty
I cry in the car sometimes
It still hurts
I get really angry
It takes me a long time to figure out why
I'm distracted
She's a big sister now
That hurts too
Sometimes I say her name in my head
I'm not the only one
I should be happier
I don't give a damn
I forget to ask Him for help
When I do I usually get what I need
I haven't forgotten
I never will
Do I know her better now?
I see her all the time
People say her name too
That makes me happy
They share the same day
I never knew it would be so hard
Maybe next year
Maybe next year